Reluctant Heroes

Call me a rebel but I have never been one to subscribe to the idea
of karma. I leave the whole three fold "law" notions to the wiccans.
I figure the religion is only about 50 years old. They don't know
any better yet. Wicca is a melting pot of a lot of things from
around the world. Not many of their beliefs are based on anything
that they came up with on their own. And while I have has some study
in eastern philosophy and various types of "magic" I have failed in
finding much that relates them to the philosophies and ways of the
pagan societies of Europe where "traditional" witchcraft was
focused. So I really do not understand why they have adopted the
monkish views of karma.
I do not believe that the pagan gods of Europe would kneel to
the "laws" of some eastern Deity nor would they expect their
worshipers to live by the laws of a religion far from their own.
Witchcraft is not Buddhism or something out of the jungles of India.
Of course there is the point of view today that "paganism" is
ANYTHING and EVERYTHING pre-biblical. I see that as a public display
of laziness and a down right fucking insult. That whole "umbrella
terms" notion is there for people who do not like to think or take
the time out of their so busy lives to read anything.
I would love to see a wiccan try to tell a pagan warrior in the
ancient world that his prayers to the God of War for a victory in
the next pointless war was going to come back on him three fold. Try
preaching love and light and the law of three to Achilles and see
what he has to say about it. Hell.... try telling it to Hera, Zeus
or Hecate. They would all tell you to stay out of the wine cellar.
Try telling Pan that if he keeps on harassing the ladies and wanting
sex all the time it is going to come back on him. Yeah...bet that
will make him stop.
I would love to find Gerald Gardner, dig his ass up, kick him in the
nuts, and ask him "What in the hell were you thinking Gerry?" Ya
took a warrior spirit and turned it into a rabbit that is afraid to
come out of the fuckin hat! Damn it man!
We get all these gifts from the Gods and now we have some wack job
telling us if we use them we're going to get a galactic bitch slap.
You are, however, allowed to e-mail all the energy you want to help
someone who has already received a galactic bitch slap. They preach
karma and then try to counter it with cyber spells. And this is
the "cool" thing to do these days. The craft of the wise has become
the craft of the bots.
Let's try this once:
I want you all to reach out and touch your screen. Place your hand
right there on the monitor.... there ya go.
Now.... I am going to hold my liter up to my screen and you tell me
if it hurts when I burn you.
OK.... here we go....
...........................
...........................
..........Anything?
Hmmm....maybe I need to do this through messenger.
We can try that later. I will get a hammer and a nail and see if we
can fake some stigmata via the net.
Exactly when did paganism and witchcraft become the band-aid station
for all of life's woes? All of a sudden EVERYONE is an em-path who
can help you out with all sorts of issues. I have been praying to
the gods for some woman to IM me thinking she has breast cancer. I'm
not a doctor but I'll look anyway.
It is all a slap in the face to the few people out there who do
actually have some gifts. You have 101 healers running around and
only 3 of them can actually do anything. The rest of the just like
the concept of being in the hero light. They need to be needed.
Makes me wonder who is really helping whom.
And the moment you let slip that you do have some real gifts you
have people lining up at your door wanting you to fix everything in
their lives. You can't go anywhere without them coming up with a new
problem for you to correct or give some insight on.
People.... if you don't have enough brains to figure life out by now
no one is going to be able to help you. You don't need a hero you
need some balls.
I'm a reluctant hero. Don't come to Snowy for an ass-kissing
contest. It won't happen. I wont talk all sweet to you just so you
can feel a little bit better about yourself. I wont send you any e-
mail that holds the energy needed to bring back your one true love
that just so happens to be your 13Th one true love this year. I
don't believe in the laws of karma and I don't subscribe to fluff. I
don't sugar coat life with love and light and I don't want to hear
about any problem you might have that common sense would correct.
Life is only as complicated as your views and relationships only
work if they are meant to. If you have lost count of how many people
you have dated or married then chances are the problem does not lie
in all of them. After the second crack at it you had better start
looking to your own because 19 people did not leave you because they
are the ones with the issues.
I have never in my life run into a problem that I could not figure
out on my own given a little time. I have never run into a challenge
that was so great my brain shut down and I hid in terror. I figure
that if a test is put in front of me someone out there figures I can
pass it. And the stronger you get the harder the tests become. If
you think you are overwhelmed now I would hate to see what you would
be thinking in 5 years.
But in the end we play with the gifts the Gods give us. They gave me
a stone. Nothing magical or mystical about it. It is just stone.
Marble actually. A sphere a bit bigger than my fist. It is cold and
hard and unbending. Odd thing is that I have learned more from that
damned stone than anything else. Probably because it is me.


Angel Snowden -2006